Ramblings

So my days are spent reading forums, watching t.v., playing video games and occasionally a hand or two in poker. The days are long, muddled, and very very boring.

For the longest time, all I could think about was ending school. I was ecstatic when I graduated, not only because I got my degree but because I’d have alot of free time.
Well, free time is overrated…at least right now. I suppose I could have a skewed view of things, having not really ever had a ‘real’ job perse…I’ve been told that the freedom that poker offers is priceless, though I have yet to really experience it.

I’m sure there are many like me right now…sortve in a transitional stage, have some extra cash from poker and not really a clue what to do. My degree in history is relatively useless and I’m not too hard pressed to get a real job quite yet…I still have enough money to live fine for the next year or two.

I don’t know how much longer I see poker as a viable ‘profession’. I haven’t played many hands in a long while, and poker has lost some of its luster in my life…I don’t have nearly the passion and drive I once did. The variance and swings are annoying as well.

I’ve gone hard at every hobby I’ve pursued. That is, when I really enjoy something, I go all out in it…pour my heart and soul into it, to learn new ideas, techniques, to improve. Now that poker is ending a bit in my life, I need to find something else…another productive hobby/passion to fill my time.

Basically, I’m fairly lost…I don’t know what I want to do with my life, I don’t have a great degree, I’m losing the only source of income I’ve known the last few years (well, not totally, but you get the picture).My days are filled with the same old boring stuff, and I’m bored.I live a loser lifestyle right now and I really need to fix it.

I’ve been thinking about ways to remedy it…the clearest way out of this mild depression is to find new hobbies and learn to occupy my time. I’ve been toying with the idea of going up to see my grandfather and learning about stocks/trading/etc…he’s been fairly successful and it seems like a good skill to learn.

I also am planning on going with my friends to Mexico sometime in the next few months. Hopefully sooner rather than later, I can’t stand Nebraska that much longer…at least with this weather. My plans in the next few months are pretty muddled though, and I’m not quite sure what I want to do. There are alot of ideas I have with regards to travel, and alot of options.

I want to eventually take a trip out to Thailand again and go around Asia…maybe to Nepal. I’m not quite sure if I’ll do Vegas this year, we’ll see. Further, I hear that my family might take a cruise trip or something in early July.

Will I play flag football in the spring? Will I have had enough of Nebraska (right now) and spazzily go buy a ticket somewhere? I don’t know…I just know that with my friends all having real jobs, there isn’t shit to do during the day…and I need to do something. Climbing/working out/computer stuff can only occupy so much time.

/end rant